Better Life Bags has grown from a small handmade hobby to an entire company with employees and I have found myself (and this blog) squeezed out. Not in a bad way, but in a necessary way so that the company can grow in the way it needs to.
Posts about my family and my personal growth no longer seem to fit under a blog or URL named “Better Life Bags”. I absolutely want to continue sharing the stories behind the company and update you all on new bag styles and sales, but I’m taking back my blog.
It has a new name: Rebecca Smith Online and a new URL: www.RebeccaSmithOnline.com
I have a new twitter account: @rebeccaisonline
On this blog, you’ll find posts about…
Life: our family, our hobbies, and our stories of what’s it like to live missionally and intentionally in our Detroit community
Love: loving God and loving people in authentic and experiential ways
Learning: I’m going to share candidly about what it’s like to run a business, be entrepreneurial, learn from those ahead of me and teach those coming up the lines behind me. This is probably the heartbeat behind Rebecca Smith Online (RSO) and what I hope to grow this website into. A place for entrepreneurs to learn and grow.
So this is the beginning. And I’ve been holding myself from starting until most everything was in place. Beginnings are like the best kept secret, yet the hardest to keep going – because no one but you knows things are stirring.
The first weeks of pregnancy. The interview process for your dream job. The beginning of a weight loss and health journey. It’s all the same. Quiet. Introspective. Hopeful. Teetering on the edge of the dangerous and unknown.
The possibility of failure.
But starting (even with the risk of failing) seemed better to me than doing nothing with this Internet space.
I thought long and hard about what to do about the mess and madness of my previous blog posts. 5 years of writing in a voice that I started to recognize by the end. I wanted to delete it. To start fresh here with nothing but blank pages. But THAT. Those entries behind here was THAT beginning. The “first beginning” and what now has become. And it is beautiful. I’ll wade through them. Dig them up. Blow the dust off their words and remember the beginning I came from and how I have transformed already.
I’ll pull out the ones that are worth re-sharing today and quietly leave the ones that didn’t represent who I am. And probably also cringe inside while reading the ones I wrote while trying to be someone else. But I don’t erase beginnings – no matter how rough they are.
I’m anxious to see what this site becomes, but I also desperately want to hang on to these beginnings. These hard HARD moments of making just the next right choice. The next obvious step. Sometimes blindly but based off a feeling of THIS. This is what I do next.
No more hiding and whispering or hoping. THIS is my beginning: RebeccaSmithOnline.com